Thread:Zf6hellion/@comment-18812574-20141015053921/@comment-24984058-20141016182411

Alright. Since I am about three seconds away from resigning as captain and leaving this site completely, I figure I might as well say what is on my mind and if no one likes what I have to say, then too bad. That is what everyone wanted, anyway; for me to be " able to come speak for myself ".

As reiterated numerous times before, I am in my final year of college and I am beginning to get down to the very serious work, work that often takes me hours to complete. As exhilarating as it is to come here and interact with you "wonderful people" of BFF, I have school work that takes my main focus away from my writing, meaning that most of it does not get done. I will agree that, during these absences, my mind tends to be a chameleon, in that my ideas are constantly changing or building and that is because I have so many ideas that I cannot get penned down before I want to change them. That I will chalk up as one of my fatal flaws. Unfortunately, I am not going to college, and spending thousands of dollars doing so, to learn how to be a writer for so pardon me if my schoolwork is first and foremost. Moreover, I most certainly do not need to be talked about behind my back and made fun of by my so called “friends” about how much this upsets them. ‘’’My’’’ way of life is best suited for ‘’’me’’’, not any of ‘’’you’’’. Mind you, no one is being ‘’’forced’’’ to collaborate with me; if you ‘’’really’’’ do not like me or my way of life that much, then you stick to ‘’’you’’’ and I will stick to me.

As for you all saying that Alpha had no reason butting in to this conversation, I sorely disagree. I happened to see this thread last night, while working on a gun control term paper, and I vented my anger to him in the chat before I said something that I would sorely regret and would probably get me banned. He took it upon himself to come into this conversation and defend me, as I would hope any “friend” would when people are talking shit behind someone’s back. You know you guys’, I have a message wall too and I would be more than willing to take those complaints that you have; you don’t have to sneak around. Mind you, I did flake on Alpha on an NF story, as he stated, and he did not get mad, either. You know why? ‘’’Because people have lives’’’ (mind blowing, I know). I find it fantastic that others are able to juggle work/school and play time (writing stories), but during the day, I help my disabled mother with chores around the house and in the afternoon and evening, I am at college. I am not going to race home and hop on the computer without eating dinner or showering; my priorities are a tad more in line than that. I am also not going to stay up on a computer until midnight or three in the morning; I am not a vampire and I do enjoy getting more than a few hours of sleep. Again, my priorities are a tad more in line than that.

Lastly, I am not going to get on every day and say “hey guys, I am going to be gone for the weekend” or “hey guys, I am going to be gone for a few days”. I mean what would this be good for? I can waist two minutes (as stated by Z) that could be spent doing homework and papers just to let a bunch of arseholes who could give two shits about me and my life that I won’t be on today? F that.

I think that I pretty much hit every nail on the head here, but by all means, if I missed something, please let me know. From now on, I will have a completely stylized schedule on my homepage to make it ‘’’perfectly clear’’’ as to when I will and will not be logged on. I will also include a template at the top of my user page, letting everyone know ‘’’exactly’’’ how I operate and how long it may or may not take to get a story started or a page done.

Goodbye. Wolfthorn (Howl) 18:24, October 16, 2014 (UTC)