Thread:Somnium Fluxus/@comment-18812574-20170510194640/@comment-8621178-20170511053851

No worries, mate, I wasn't planning on ditching the wiki without a proper goodbye. Aside from trying to regain my interest in continuing the FC, I just had to take care of other shit I've been neglecting of late. No hard feelings.

In hindsight, perhaps my issue wasn't so much of the debate (if you were anyone else, I probably wouldn't have cared much for it, if at all) and more of the fact I felt almost rejected by someone I've always considered one of my closest friends on the wiki. But beyond that, I was beginning to consider that maybe you were right about me and I'm just not cut to write fanfiction anymore. I don't consider myself a roleplayer because I don't find roleplays worth taking seriously, and I can't call myself a fanfiction writer because, arguably, I'm not writing fanfiction. What I do happen to be is an amateur novelist; I write for very different reasons than the rest of you. Maybe I'm just pretending to be the same as all of you when I really shouldn't be. So, truly, what AM I doing here?

I was considering leaving the wiki for good, and I still am to some extent, but it just wouldn't sit well with me if I left with so much unfinished business. Whether I like it or not, I've started a story here, and, somehow, I've made good friends here despite being something of a lone wolf most of the time. My pride as both a writer and a friend to you and the others won't just let me abandon everything so suddenly. The show must go on until I can say it's finished, y'know? (And Glacies gets plenty of love, so there's that, too.)