Thread:Epzilon/@comment-5651818-20151018051117

Epzi, I think it's time we called it quits with this..one-sided battle of egos. Ever since the Opposition we've been trying to outdo Sei at every turn. Failing miserably, but still trying. We've reworked our characters to fit the mold of being Seireitou and Raian's ultimate destruction when that was not their original design but one we created out of a need to beat Seireitou (the character) and finally redeem ourselves. Not in the eyes of anyone else, but in our own eyes I think. We've been trying to regain some lost sense of worth that came with something we never expected to happen. Our characters being killed off. Ever since then, the entirety of our writing has revolved around Raian and Seireitou. His concepts. His techniques. His everything; like we're trying to use his own creation to kill him. I think Abysmal had referenced something like this before. Becoming "too close" or getting too personal with your characters to the point where if they have been defeated, you have been defeated and that's not how it should be. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with taking pride in your creation and having some for of emotional bond to them (which helps you actually give a fuck about how you write them). But, there must be boundaries set between us and our characters so we won't take a simple lost to extreme levels and spend the next two years racking our brain trying to figure out a way to get our revenge.

I don't blame Sei or Ten or even the Opposition. I was dealt a hand and I fucked it up. For two years. And this is where I make it right. Better late than never. From making Gekko a god, to a demon and everything in between; I've been trying to close that gap between myself and Sei. When, all along my lost had nothing to do with the ineptitude of my characters, but everything to do with my inexperience. Bro, we've created characters and even concepts all based around Sei's ideas for the simple fact that we wanted to use these things for his destruction.

So, that's all I had to say. You can take it anyway you want. I could be wrong about you, but I know what my intentions were these past two years now whether I realized them back then or not. 